Mending
This week has been a valley for me. I have been emotionally drained and literally just floating through the everyday motions of life. But if you know me then you know that is not how I live and I dont believe in dwelling in sorrows. I know how short life can be here on earth and I know we are meant to live it glorifying Christ until He returns to take us home. I'm putting my foot down and beating the temptations satan has of dwelling in sadness.
There is the old saying of Misery loves company. I have found that there have been many, many times this past week I have allowed myself to dwell on the misery and not the blessings. Just because our plans don't work out does not mean they were bad plans. We learn from our experiences, from people we meet, and moments we cherish. But ultimately we must remember God has already created a story for us, He knows the plans and He is ready to bless us with them (Jeremiah 29:11).
God is also a jealous God. He wants our love, our undivided devotion. And as I look back on these past two years, I realize I have put my dreams and love of another before my God. I love the Lord with all my heart but I think if I had was given a choice between choosing between the two, for a small second I would of paused in my choice.. and even though in my heart I know I would and always choose Christ, that small pause has made me realized my priorities were not straight. I should never ever have a reason to pause. God should always be our first priority, without Him I/we am/are nothing. So as I move on, I find myself coming back to the heart of worship. Because it truly is all about You, God. Its all about You.
I have many wonderful memories, moments that I will cherish. And I know there will be more times we share as friends. I still pray blessings for you and as always 2 Thess 1:3 will hold a special meaning in my heart.
As I move on I know God will heal my heart, and I know it will take time. And as I continue to heal I will count my blessing and keep looking for the contentment in the chaos.
There is the old saying of Misery loves company. I have found that there have been many, many times this past week I have allowed myself to dwell on the misery and not the blessings. Just because our plans don't work out does not mean they were bad plans. We learn from our experiences, from people we meet, and moments we cherish. But ultimately we must remember God has already created a story for us, He knows the plans and He is ready to bless us with them (Jeremiah 29:11).
God is also a jealous God. He wants our love, our undivided devotion. And as I look back on these past two years, I realize I have put my dreams and love of another before my God. I love the Lord with all my heart but I think if I had was given a choice between choosing between the two, for a small second I would of paused in my choice.. and even though in my heart I know I would and always choose Christ, that small pause has made me realized my priorities were not straight. I should never ever have a reason to pause. God should always be our first priority, without Him I/we am/are nothing. So as I move on, I find myself coming back to the heart of worship. Because it truly is all about You, God. Its all about You.
I have many wonderful memories, moments that I will cherish. And I know there will be more times we share as friends. I still pray blessings for you and as always 2 Thess 1:3 will hold a special meaning in my heart.
As I move on I know God will heal my heart, and I know it will take time. And as I continue to heal I will count my blessing and keep looking for the contentment in the chaos.
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