Contentment in the Chaos

So I have always loved the 31st chapter of Proverbs, for those of you who have never read it, it is a beautifully written letter from a mother to her son of the qualities he should look for in a wife. Today we live in society where women are aggressive and seek to be leaders and providers, but looking into this chapter you see the woman is a strong and determined provider yet humble. She doesn't seek credit or profit, but rather her goal in life is to fulfill her role as mother and wife. She has a noble character.   Well all that to say I have been reading a study on the Proverbs 31 woman and this week is How to be a treasure to your Husband. (or future husband) Proverbs 31: 10 says,  “A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.”  Ive attached the exerpt from this weeks chapter so you can see the list of qualities found in a noble character A noble wife is rare and extraordinary – just like a ruby. A noble wife is a treasure to her husba...

     This week has been a valley for me. I have been emotionally drained and literally just floating through the everyday motions of life. But if you know me then you know that is not how I live and I dont believe in dwelling in sorrows. I  know how short life can be here on earth and I know we are meant to live it glorifying Christ until He returns to take us home. I'm putting my foot down and beating the temptations satan has of dwelling in sadness.     There is the old saying of Misery loves company. I have found that there have been many, many times this past week I have allowed myself to dwell on the misery and not the blessings. Just because our plans don't work out does not mean they were bad plans. We learn from our experiences, from people we meet, and moments we cherish. But ultimately we must remember God has already created a story for us, He knows the plans and He is ready to bless us with them (Jeremiah 29:11).       God is al...

These past couple weeks have been quite a challenge for me. Summer is always a difficult season for me because I must face the world with short sleeves and shorts. I must contend with the stares and questions about my scars. I can't hide behind sweaters and jeans and it makes me feel vulnerable. And then after a week in Florida were most the girls are a size triple 0 and wear next to nothing, Satan decides to attack me even further with lies of insecurity. So how do I find my self worth? Where has my value gone? I know God has blessed me with many gifts, talents, and good attributes; but why is it so hard to believe I am desirable? Where have I stepped off the path that leads to God being my everything? I miss my accountability group, my support system to raise me up when times are hard. The best friend that is there in the ups and downs. I hope that this summer I can overcome the lies of Satan. That I find my value in Christ and that I can hold onto the promises He has given me. I...

Its been a little while since my last post. I figured this would happen but my theory was because I would lose interest in blogging. However, I actually have had major writers block. If I am going to take the time to write something I want it to be valuable to my readers, at least in some small way. So today I finally came up with a topic.                Why can't I value the blessings that are in my life right now? I could list many things I am thankful for right now but I also could list just as many things that I wish were different. I find myself wishing for "the future". Hoping that one day my future husband will pursue me, that I will have my own family, a good job, etc. And as I talk to people, I have found that we all have similar moments of wishing. So why is it so hard to be thankful for the "now"? Why must we continually wish our lives were different? This week I am going to start and end the day with the intention of seeking contentm...

So just the other day I had a conversation with a very dear friend about being content in our lives and how we need to trust God. Not only for provisions, such as food and clothing, but we also need to trust Him with our money, our jobs, and our desires. (Ps. 37:4) I had come across a quote that I had jotted down in a journal (shocking, I know! lol) by A.W. Tozer. "In almost everything that touches our everyday life on earth, God is pleased when we're pleased. He wills that we be as free as the birds to soar and sing our Maker's praise without anxiety." Well then our discussion turned to, "what does it mean to be free as a bird?" This is a Killdeer  At the greenhouse down the street is beautiful mama Killdeer (type of bird, in case you were wondering). This mama bird has four brown speckled eggs in her little nest on the ground. And everyday that I visit the nest, there she sits in rain, or hail or in the midst of human invaders, nothing phases t...

Ok this my third attempt at blogging. The first blog shouldn't count. It was a college assignment that lasted three posts. (And boy! They were AWFUL.)  But the second blog was created with the intention of being a success. I was going to be one of those blogs that everyone wants to read. The one you find posted all over facebook and pinterest. But I'm pretty sure that one lasted two posts. *Sigh* Ok, I'll admit it.. I'm one of those girls who has twenty different journals with ten pages filled out. I cant help it, their adorable. Something about a new book with untouched pages is full of potential in the store. It calls out to me, and of course I buy it and my "journalism-experience" lasts about a week! But sadly I'm also one of those girls who tend to post alot of facebook. And that is one habit I'm going to break, Oh social networking, you've created a monster. The thing is, my life is no where near boring. I wouldn't define it as excitin...