Contentment in the Chaos

These past couple weeks have been quite a challenge for me. Summer is always a difficult season for me because I must face the world with short sleeves and shorts. I must contend with the stares and questions about my scars. I can't hide behind sweaters and jeans and it makes me feel vulnerable. And then after a week in Florida were most the girls are a size triple 0 and wear next to nothing, Satan decides to attack me even further with lies of insecurity. So how do I find my self worth? Where has my value gone? I know God has blessed me with many gifts, talents, and good attributes; but why is it so hard to believe I am desirable? Where have I stepped off the path that leads to God being my everything? I miss my accountability group, my support system to raise me up when times are hard. The best friend that is there in the ups and downs. I hope that this summer I can overcome the lies of Satan. That I find my value in Christ and that I can hold onto the promises He has given me. I...

Its been a little while since my last post. I figured this would happen but my theory was because I would lose interest in blogging. However, I actually have had major writers block. If I am going to take the time to write something I want it to be valuable to my readers, at least in some small way. So today I finally came up with a topic.                Why can't I value the blessings that are in my life right now? I could list many things I am thankful for right now but I also could list just as many things that I wish were different. I find myself wishing for "the future". Hoping that one day my future husband will pursue me, that I will have my own family, a good job, etc. And as I talk to people, I have found that we all have similar moments of wishing. So why is it so hard to be thankful for the "now"? Why must we continually wish our lives were different? This week I am going to start and end the day with the intention of seeking contentm...